Monday, April 07, 2008

today... i finally know what it means by having to see yourself as worthless. I feel so lousy today. Never lousier than before. I can't change things that have happened and I choose to look at it like a wimp, a pessimist. I choose to let myself remain sad, scared and desolate. Strong words. True or not? I'm don't care. I just to choose to use them. Tell me that I am the lousiest boyfriend on earth I would thank you for stating the obvious. I know I am. No matter what anyone says... I am adamant about this truth. Just let me remain depressed and make ppl around me more stressed up and intolerable of my behaviour and start leaving me.. Till I screw up my life... ever once more... i hate myself.

i hate myself... ...

i took a shine to you at 4:36 PM