Thursday, August 31, 2006

Today's paper was a total disaster.
TOTAL FULL SCALE DISASTER...
What can be worse than having no idea what the **** the question is talking about? I got stunned by this term which I have NEVER come across. This seemingly simple but senseless word. Well it was senseless to me at least.

Sometimes you really regret when you are doing the paper. You'd ask yourself: WHY DIDN'T I STUDY THAT! I came across it but simply brushed off the idea that it would appear on the screen today.

There is an advantage to using MSN. It makes you type really fast. It's been a long time since I wrote a lengthy essay using my hands. All this while, it's been with the help of the computer. MSN has trained my fingers to perform typing at a faster rate than I write and this has successfully drawn some attention to the way I type this morning. They were like "I feel for the keyboard... Painful" "You type very loud and scary leh..."
Hmm.. well it could be just the sound... my fingers were tapping on the backspace button most of the time and I was never fast.

I think I'll be joining the retest people next week.. HOPE I M NOT ALONE!! haha... well.. i don't think i will be alone lar... considering the number of heads i saw shaking at the end of the paper.

i took a shine to you at 11:51 AM

Monday, August 28, 2006

A message which I didn't send this morning...

"Great seeing you again."

You've been looking but I didn't turn back. When I turned back, you were not looking.

i took a shine to you at 10:15 AM

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Running is a painful but healthy process. Whoever came up with the idea of running marathons, thanks! My knees are aching like there is a nail hammered into them. The arch of my feet are seriously strained from some unknown reasons. Readers, just ignore the whining of this weak young man.

Well at least I get my day off tomorrow!
Seriously, running is good but long dist running is bad for me at least.

I gorged a hell lot of food today. Curry rice at 4am, LOTSA meat at noon time, Rojak for tea (treat from WIJAYA), Pizza and chix wings for dinner! I need them to mend my broken tissue.

It's been a long time since I last bladed. I WANT TO BLADE! but no one blade with me... =(

Actually got the wrong timing for tuition... WTH. SO BLUR but I remember is 1830 leh... hAI. getting senile already.

The end of August is coming and I am on the verge of getting cheated by the kayak guy who said the kayak will come end this month.

Darius is coming back this Wed. Hmm... great...

i took a shine to you at 8:56 PM

Saturday, August 26, 2006

Today appears to be a short. When events take place one after another, time seems to be compressed.

The taste of Lao Bei Jing Xiao Long Bao is deeply etched in my memory, somehow it still lingers in my mouth. Gorging so many baos within 2 hours was a great feat but please try not to do it too often. =P

After I parted with Ge Yao grp and Wenyang and coy, I took 147 allllllll the way to Hougang Central to shop for my AHM singlet. BTW, even if they didn't have the stupid rule, I'd still wear my own singlet. Come on, don't expect me to wear a garrison attire and RUN along ORCHARD. I was so determined to find the right singlet that I spent 1 hour shopping in Hg Mall and, later, another hour in J8. I found the singlet that I wanted, which was sadly not orange, in J8. There was an orange adidas one but it was frigging ex so settled for the cheap reebok one. BUT, I spent quite a bit on my ORANGE ADIDAS tights for cycling and kayaking!!! haha... SEXY TIGHTS! Willy shall take a pic and post it maybe tomorrow!

Tomorrow will be a SHAG day. I think it's time for me to sleep... Good night people!

i took a shine to you at 10:04 PM did you noe that she's 33????
She so pretty lar! and she's from Oxford... power sia...


i took a shine to you at 1:18 AM I caught click today...

It's so frigging touching esp when Adam Sandler passed the female lead erm wat's her name (kate beckinsale rite) the note: Will you still love me in the morning? Willy Buay tahan this kinda scene one lor...

Watched the movie alone with an Ang Mo ger sitting beside me.. haha... din catch a good look of her but I think Kate Beckinsale more hot... haha

I was shopping for my AHM attire this afternoon and I came across a few ORANGE singlets from Mizuno and Adidas.. bt they were not exactly wat i wanted... I shall continue my hunt tml!

Bowling was rather boring... Since it's boring I should not talk much about it...

AHM is on Sunday... Run willy Run...

Den again.. wake up so early to run??? YAWN

i took a shine to you at 12:25 AM

Thursday, August 24, 2006

A boy and a girl met in school. Over time, they developed feelings for each other. Once they simply sat on a swing in an alley and talked from morning to night. Boy was a flirt. Girl cried because of the boy and the boy got so touched. Boy got together with girl. They didn't have a fairy tale courtship. Boy went to NS. Girl went to school. Boy and girl talked lesser. Boy and girl broke up.

Love, Me
By Colin Raye
I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me.
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago, Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your Grandma so."
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead Of her, I found this letter, and this is what it said:
If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.
I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away,
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray.
I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;
But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.
If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.
Between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

This is an extremely old song which I never paid notice to. One fine day I played the songs in my media library randomly and rediscovered this sweet song. Read the lyrics carefully. I don't know about you but I almost cried...

i took a shine to you at 9:42 PM

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Highly inspired by WY's 3 min summary, I'd like to share the 7 habits of a HIGHLY effective AH BENG which I found on the net which is also derived from Stephen Covey's.

1. Be Pro-active
Kin Ka Kin Chew (fast leg, fast hand)
2. Begin with the end in Mind
Ooh Tau Ooh Buay (have head, have tail)
3. First things first
Chik Hung Chik Hung Lai (One thing at a time, slow and steady)
4. Think Win Win
Long Chong Ai YARH (all must win)
5. Sharpen the Saw
Toh Bua Lai Lai (Knife make sharp sharp)
6. Seek to understand rather than to be understood
Cho Lang Ai Eh Beng Pek (you must be understanding)
7. Synergise
Tai Kay Ai Hup Chop (all must cooperate)

i took a shine to you at 1:33 PM

Monday, August 21, 2006

Why can't they be more comprehensive? I am sick of guessing what I need to do and what lies ahead. I am so irritable today.

The first day of work is so slack and uninteresting. I can feel the ORD mood setting in already. It's bad I know but it just kicks in so naturally like sleep.

Why does everything appear so sucky when you know nuts about them?
It feels as if I am bursting.

Left with no choice you know... DAMN SUCKY

Great... another day just passed... wasted 1 day... 24 hours of my life has just been wasted... WHy don't I waste the rest of it...

i took a shine to you at 9:42 PM

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Insulin...

TROUBLED... Life's so unpredictable. You won't know what's going to happen tomorrow. As a matter of fact, I am not even sure where I will be 365days from now. Partying in UK? Holed up in the library at Magdalene? Kayaking at Mac? Rushing my tutorial for biz add/engin? Who knows I may not even exist anymore.

Don't worry, there's nothing wrong with me. Things have happened and have caused me to lament about life. Directionless. Escapist.

Why brood over things that are out of our control and lose hair over it?
I feel so sick.

Off to watch movie now and drown my sorrows in ..... who knows what...

i took a shine to you at 2:02 PM

Friday, August 18, 2006

Global warming is kicking in. 2 - 3 degrees rise in the temperature, which will happen soon, will have disastrous effects on our planet. Willy will die of HEAT. It's so HOT today! I will severely dehydrated and hot especially with a laptop on my lap. It could also be because I have been spending too much time in the air con and that is making easily heated up (sounds wrong).

I love you = 8 letters... Bullshit = 8 letters...
Judge for yourself

There are 2 perceptions of BGR.
1. I am in a relationship and after much consideration I think this is the person I want to spend my life with. He/She is not 100% compatible but we can work to build our relationship towards that. I wanna get married with him/her.
2. I am in a relationship. I want to see if this guy/gal is the right one for me. If I find him/her not suitable for me after some time I will have to break up with him/her even if it means a lot pain for us. I think I still like him/her, well a little, but I don't see a future with him/her so I must end it here. I don't want to force him/her to change for me so I am not considering giving it a another chance. I will keep my options open to find my Ms/Mr Right.

I am type 1.
KX told me he is type 1 too.
What are you?

Commitment... Commitment is not love. Many people have told me "Why be with the person when you no longer like that person and being together is just a commitment?"

Are you going to divorce when there are problems between you and your spouse? You will work things out right? Then why can't you work things out now?

Don't say I love you when you don't mean it. When you say I love you, you have promised everything of yours to another person. Don't say I love you and say, the next moment, "I don't think I like him/her anymore so we should break up..."

It's not only the wedding ring that binds you. The words you say have effects also. Don't always say the other side has changed therefore you no longer love that person anymore because for that you deserve a slap.
Firstly, people change. I guess you've heard of the phrase "change is the only thing that's constant."
Secondly, love is accomodating. If you can't stand a change in the person and think that the only solution to that change is to not love that person anymore then you don't know what is love. Will you foresake your spouse if he/she falls ill? Can't recognise you? It's DAMN SAD. Once you love someone, it doesn't undo itself so easily. You see your parents everyday. Some of you are not close to them but you know you love them and that no matter what happens they are your loved ones. Why can't you apply the same logic? Don't give me the bullshit about bo bian they are my parents or they got blood ties with me... you love them because you know that they love you so very much. You know how much they care for you even if they don show it.
Thirdly, if your partner is willing to change for you. Please accept it and if you have to change please change. It's about giving, taking and not calculating. Don't say things like "you don't have to change for me you know... I don't want to force you" He/she loves you that's why he/she changes. You should be touched.

Always put yourself in the other person's shoes... Don't do unto other wat you dont want other to do unto you.. simple logic. don't break a heart...

Artist: Adam Sandler
Album: Wedding Singer
Title: I Wanna Grow Old With You
i wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
carry you around when your arthritis is bad
all i wanna do is grow old with you
I'll get you medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
So it could be so nice growing old with you ....
I'll miss you Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
Need you Feed you
Even let you hold the remote control.
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
Oh I could be the man that grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you.

Some people just want to grow old with you... think twice...
End of the day... I am not you.. what I said could be just bullshit..

i took a shine to you at 5:17 PM

Thursday, August 17, 2006

I finally finished my last exercise today. I am deserving of the cert. that I will be receiving tomorrow!

We went to SURF and TURF in FUNAN for dinner. The BLUE forces left early for their erm late night SUPPER program while the innocent guys like us went to K Box. K Box was really fun. People who missed it - TOO BAD (JX and CJ). Ber's vocal is really there...

I just realised HALF MARATHON is next next week. It's about time I start training up. I think I need to start running everyday from Sat onwards (tml I'm playing soccer). Besides training, it's mugging time for the exam on 30 Aug.

Don't have much to write these days... Is the novelty of having a blog dying off? Am I psychologically HEALED? I wonder wHY...

i took a shine to you at 11:10 PM

Sunday, August 13, 2006

We went cycling today.
Suhan has proven himself to be the most unlucky person in the UNIVERSE. He got scratched. His bike chain came loose several times. His pedal fell off. What a day for him! I know I shouldn't be publicizing all this but I just can't help but be a "bastard" HEEEEEEEE

Here's a sad song for all the sad people in the world.
梦天长地久的梦
地老天荒还是梦
天真的我
不曾犹豫
我现在只剩下心
不曾有过感动
不曾如此怦然心动
飘忽的你就是这样来去匆匆
错告诉我没有错
告诉我该怎么做
现在的我偷偷的说
我还没真正的错过
不要说的太多
不要说还有很多
你不要说还有很多
寂寞的我伤心的歌
是谁的错
我试着不再说这里只有我
日子一样过一回头尝尽苦果
无法忘记
不知道我该如何哭泣
不知道如何欺骗自己
是否知道只有你
是否所有的点点滴滴
和那些醉人却心痛的故事
就在我尽情哭过之后
我就能入睡后忘记
只怕梦到你
我不要不要不要
我不要梦到你
不要梦到你
伤心的歌是谁的错

When you realise you've said the wrong thing, it's already too late.
Friends... Lovers... Relatives...

i took a shine to you at 8:46 PM

Saturday, August 12, 2006

We are so vulnerable.

Do you realise that Earth is just a speck of dust in the universe? It just takes another speck of dust to collide into us and we, organisms living on this planet, will be annihilated.

Life is so fragile. Enjoy life before it's too late.

Growing up is the most cruel process that a person can be put through. He has to understand how helpless it can be at times. How things are usually out of his control. He has to conform to the standards that are set to him. He has to learn how to survive.

We didn't know that the world was like that. We didn't know why wars were fought. We didn't know why there were terrorists. We didn't know why people fought over money. We didn't know why things could be so dark. We grew up. We became desensitised. We accepted. We never questioned. We will teach our kids the same thing. The tragedy of life repeats...

Take a step back and you will realise how stupid things can turn out.

Tested my new blades. They were so frictionful.
Slept like a pig. Now I can't sleep.
Bring me the sunshine someone...
I have not seen it for days...

i took a shine to you at 11:06 PM Competency... Capacity... Calibre...
What's your take on these?
I shall keep the comments to myself. Guess.

You say what, what lor...
Sometimes you just don't feel like arguing anymore...
No point... You will never win...

Elitism...
To what extent does our society practise that?

Scholars... What does being a scholar really mean? PSC... AStar... Firefly... DSTA... GIC... MAS... blah blah...
What makes a scholar and what makes a successful person?
Does being a scholar make you successful? Or is it supposed to be you are successful therefore you are a scholar? Should it be since you are a scholar you should be successful and therefore I will ensure that you will always be successful?

IF you get power... you get more power...
IF you are powerless... you remain powerless forever...
Is that true?

Regrets are inevitable in life. Do not let small setbacks overwhelm you.

i took a shine to you at 12:10 AM

Thursday, August 10, 2006

My Kayak's delivery is delayed... there is some air bubble thing at the stern... I can only get it earliest end of this month... HOPE HE IS NOT BLUFFING ME... He sounds a little erm... hesitant when I asked him about the boat.

Summary Exercise will start tml... LAST EXERCISE...
Let's hope I don kena a XIONG APPOINTMENT AGAIN...

Today is the first day I got to leave camp and the sun has not set since the exercises started.

We ate AMPANG Yong Tau Fu today. I have been wanting to eat it since the day I got posted to Nee Soon but I always end up procrastinating. Even if I had planned which day to eat it, I will end up going to the cookhouse in the end. Things that you very much want to do are always done on the days that are least expected.

I didn't do too well for my test but even if I had studied hard the results will not be much better. The answers are so unexpected and I seriously doubt if they are even found in the books.

Anyone wants to go Eski Bar with me? some COLD DRINKS on the ICE BAR... CHILL!

i took a shine to you at 8:19 PM Finally finished my presentation and write up for tml...

Life is so boring...

Ate Fish head steamboat just now...

Slept quite a bit today...

I am very patient today... esp during tuition... what's wrong with me? (owe sylvia a movie ticket cos of some hearing problem sigh)

Where is my Yishun tuition LOBANG???

Heard the fireworks today...

Need to do some good workout after my course...

Study hard for the exams and do well for it (hope I got the motivation)...

CLICK... I wanna fast forward time...

Raise the stakes... WHY ARE PEOPLE RAISING THE STAKES??? SPOIL MARKET

What do you think about the NDP parade segment?

How should I spend the pay...?

Boring Day

i took a shine to you at 12:13 AM

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

I kena appointment again... DO I look like an easy target? Well but I learnt a lot about Bridging through the process.

I think planning a very provoking activity. When someone tries to say your plan doesn't after you spend donkey years planning for it, your blood pressure will shoot. I learnt to take a step back and am no longer the hot temper willy. I've learnt to be patient when explaining my plan to people. It's okay to repeat what you've said. After all, your guys are trying to help.

People need a reason to work and the leader has to convince. There will always be people who are not as fast when it comes to understanding the plan so be patient with them. NEVER INTERRUPT what they say. Let them have a chance to speak because that shows you are listening.

End of course next week! hahahaha Oh man why am I always bringing this up? I must be sick.

How do you feel when your plan is scrutinized and when your boss grills you on the details? I love the adrenaline derived from trying to answer his question.

National Day... STUDY and DO WORK... NO LIFE~ Yet to use my blades yet... =( I think I shall blade tomorrow morning~!

i took a shine to you at 10:38 PM

Sunday, August 06, 2006

Watching Discovery Channel now they're taking about the mediums in Singapore... Darius say he wanna go Singapore Discovery Channel erm I mean Centre this nat. day...

Lei Garden's food had some standard but I still prefer my Char Kway Teow, carrot cake, Kambing Soup, Smelly Tou Fu, Fish Head Steamboat etc. Hawker fare has a special place in my heart. They were the first thing on my mind when I woke up during my last 2 overseas exercise. It was not fresh oyster, champagne and escargot that I craved for but the steaming bowl of Laksa. (I should stop making myself hungry)

Right. Today I went blading again! Somehow, the streak of light struck on me or something, I blading better than I thought I could just before returning the blades. Damn, my performance is always fluctuating. We were doing some practice at the beginner's park too and I just couldn't master the L shape stop thing. No talent. =( NVM willy says practise makes perfect!

It's back to EXERCISE again tomorrow. NVM! 8 more days to end of all the DAMNED exercises and I can finally go back to my dear office and see the dear hubert, roy, qy and bosses. I am so excited to see them again! The euphoria of having to work with them again is so overwhelming. Haha.. But seriously I miss work.

Today is my 2nd bro's birthday. HappY Birthday! Getting married soon huh... blissful marriage~ still remember the days we crawled canals together. SO STUPID.

I rented the terminal today. Still remember the day we watched the movie... such a touching movie... my favourite... So pure, so simple, so CS gas...

Nothing to look forward to the next week... could you create something for me...?
I feed on hopes...

i took a shine to you at 7:00 PM

Saturday, August 05, 2006

Five Ways To Kill A Man
Edwin Brock

There are many cumbersome ways to kill a man.
You can make him carry a plank of wood
to the top of a hill and nail him to it. To do this
properly you require a crowd of people
wearing sandals, a cock that crows, a cloak
to dissect, a sponge, some vinegar and one
man to hammer the nails home.

Or you can take a length of steel,
shaped and chased in a traditional way,
and attempt to pierce the metal cage he wears.
But for this you need white horses,
English trees, men with bows and arrows,
at least two flags, a prince, and a
castle to hold your banquet in.

Dispensing with nobility, you may, if the wind
allows, blow gas at him. But then you need
a mile of mud sliced through with ditches,
not to mention black boots, bomb craters,
more mud, a plague of rats, a dozen songs
and some round hats made of steel.

In an age of aeroplanes, you may fly
miles above your victim and dispose of him by
pressing one small switch. All you then
require is an ocean to separate you, two
systems of government, a nation's scientists,
several factories, a psychopath and
land that no-one needs for several years.

These are, as I began, cumbersome ways
to kill a man. Simpler, direct, and much more neat
is to see that he is living somewhere in the middle
of the twentieth century, and leave him there.

I read this during one of my English lessons in RI. 5 years have past, it is still etched in my memory. War is cruel, face it. There is no victor at the end of any war because wars always progress in such a way that will cause it to finally spin out of control. At one point in time someone starts to realise that they cannot stop even if they want to. They just spiral helplessly into it.I am not a pacifist but that doesn't mean I believe that wars are absolutely justifiable.

Israel is an example of how potent a small nation can be after its people had suffered injustice for centuries. Size doesn't matter. Don't bite us... you can't take chilli padi...

Nobody likes war. BUT if war is the only way to ensure survivability, we will fight. Brutal... regardless of costs... swift and decisive...

i took a shine to you at 12:57 PM

Friday, August 04, 2006

Imagine driving this car down orchard...

How many pairs of eyes will be staring at you?

Picture yourself sitting in the driver's seat. The contours of the seat fit snugly to your back. Everything in the car is so polished and smooth. You grip the the steering wheel with your right hand, the gear with your left. You kick the accelerator and release the clutch at the same time. The car surges forward like a rocket. The engine roars like an aggressive beast preying on a deer. This car responds to every little bit of pressure you exert on the accelerator as though there are no limits to its speed.

i took a shine to you at 9:07 PM

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

No day no night...
Why do we see the sun only 3 times in a day?
Morning, Lunch, Curry Puff Break...

We work from the time we see a neat file of cars parked along the road in the morning to the time when only one green starlet is left sitting on a parking lot at night.

The reptitive process is making me severely sick. It's like eating abalone every meal. Shiok also can turn sick.

2 More days to weekend... 1 more exercise to weekend...

This however reminds me for the cadet days when rest was so precious. Having said that, sometimes I get disturbed over how I enjoy fatigue. Fatigue pumps adrenaline all over my bod. The processs of fighting the ZZZ monster is similar to a real fist to fist fight. You get angry when you succumb; excited when you try to psyche yourself.

2 weeks minus to end of course!

i took a shine to you at 10:13 PM