Wednesday, May 31, 2006

She is pretty... erm ya...

i took a shine to you at 9:48 PM What do you think about homosexuals?

I think the emotional affection they have for each other is perfectly fine but, sorry, I cannot accept the physical intimacy amongst homosexuals.

Extracted from http://www.holocaust-trc.org/homosx.htm
As part of the Nazis' attempt to purify German society and propagate an "Aryan master race," they condemned homosexuals as "socially aberrant." Soon after taking office on January 30, 1933, Hitler banned all homosexual and lesbian organizations. Brownshirted storm troopers raided the institutions and gathering places of homosexuals. Greatly weakened and driven underground, this subculture had flourished in the relative freedom of the 1920s, in the pubs and cafes of Berlin, Hamburg, Munich, Bremen, and other cities.

Persecution is wrong. These few days the topic of homosexuality kept coming to me. Through friends who have friends who are gay and through this guy I know online. I have blocked him though (shall not go into details just in case it was just a misunderstanding). BUT! I have thought about GAYS these few days (oh no this sounds wronG). I have never had a self prodessed gay friend. I think if I had one, I would not see him differently. BUT! If he touches me... THATS IT!

Well homosexuals are human beings too. There is no reason for ostracizing them if they don't disturb you physically. Of course if the emotional affection he has becomes too overwhelming it gets irritating too. Eg. Keep asking you for your number when you duno who in the world he is... Keep asking you out for a date... Keep spamming you with his number...

Finally we are making some progress in what I am doing in Army. My small boss is back from Germany (he took pics with Ballack!!!!!) and finally someone is taking over some high level job.. phew... Pity him, come back immediately must rush the stuff out. Well, what to do? It works like that.

Btw sidetrack... when do babies start to grow teeth??? Eh wait... why am I asking this here...? hahaha.. oh well.. anyone with answer can just tag me...

i took a shine to you at 9:42 PM

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Final words of a kamikaze pilot...
What do you think?

April 15, 1945
Dear Father, Mother, and Sister,
Thank you for everything you did during my lifetime. Now I have been chosen to go to Okinawa to make a decisive counterattack against our hated enemies, the Americans. When I reflect back, my life only has been full of wonderful memories. During the 18 years of my life, by the love of you father and mother, I can give my short 18 years as a member of the Special Attack Force of the skies. Truly I cannot suppress this long-cherished desire. In spite of facing death in air battles off Taiwan, I shamelessly survived and truly apologize to my comrades who died before me. Now at last I will have a splendid place to die, so I can apologize to my comrades and to you father and mother. Without any regrets I can go to crash into an enemy ship. I hope my hometown friends are doing well and striving their hardest, and please say hello from me to my friends at work, school, and the farm. Please also give my best regards to Uncle Nakamura and to my other acquaintances. As I write this letter of final farewell, I say goodbye to this life. Please take care. Father, Mother, and Sister, I wish you the best.
Yoshiaki

i took a shine to you at 9:51 PM Today my heart suffered from erratic pumping patterns...

What does it mean if you tear when you talk about certain things? If you go on an exchange program how will I react? I don't know whether I will be sad... Guess I will be...
Realised that our most primitive way of calling each other is one that we will use in the future. Many things that you said this afternoon made me very "complete". It was not an exactly happy feeling but at least I feel that I still have a place in your heart. Selfish... but I hope I will be the only one who will care for you that much...

I thought I will forget you but I realized when I am troubled over my driving the first person I have in my mind is you.

Today's work was super bad. Things are getting so cheem that I don't know a single thing. No inkling on how to go about doing it at all. SAVE ME...

ANYWAY HAPPY DUMPLING FESTIVAL! I had my first dumpling this morning for breakfast. I am getting a little heaty though. Woke up with a sore throat... it must be from the durian I had the previous night in addition to all the late nights... OH AND CPT DERRICK's CHOCOLATE FROM GERMANY..

Suddenly I find myself missing PE lessons in school esp those I had in RI and the hwa chong netball module... I loved the RUGBY module in RI... so cool... get to grab ppl... swing ppl... pin ppl... haha not to forget floorball and hockey as well. Netball in Hwa Chong was great too.. I was always playing centre thanks to my SPEED.. BHB

BEING in school is so fun... I miss school.. Uni's not gonna be the same. Gonna have lesser close friends and my combi is gonna kill me... I LOVE WORK...

i took a shine to you at 9:29 PM

Monday, May 29, 2006

Feeling very panicky for my driving test on Fri...

Today I did quite a few things at work. So sorry I cannot say what I did again... Else I will have MSD knocking on my door. Anyway I feel STRONG sense of satisfaction. It's not over yet. I still gotta touch up some of the stuff I did.

Where should we go for cohesion? I feel like playing badminton. Ok it sounds reeli cheapo but I kinda miss badminton. ANYWAY, I am quite broke.

Kelvin came back to office today from Thailand. Envy him. Spend time with wife overseas. Thailand's stuff are so cheap lar. He said his down payment for his condo is just like S$2000. The food there is like so cheap also. That I can vouch for it. Sometimes it's quite fun leading this kinda life. I mean only if you are drawing Singaporean pay but spending in Thai. But if you work there then be prepared to get a huge pay cut. BUT at the end of the day you will return here so that you kids can get the best education in Singapore. Face it - Singapore's education system is stressful but undoubtedly one of the best in the region.

Well that's one of the reasons why I am staying in Singapore.
(er hope i not wrong)

i took a shine to you at 7:21 PM

Sunday, May 28, 2006

scroll up and down...
does the centre move??

i took a shine to you at 11:14 PM Good luck yixin for your results... Not messaging you does not mean that you are out of my life... it just means I dunnoe wat to say... I dunnoe how to say...

Went out with Suhan and Wenxiang today cos Sylvia had CIP...

We went Suntec to make a new pair of glasses for Suhan (his broke). Gosh.. we spent like more than an hour at the optical shop cos Suhan was taking his time choosing his specs... AND he took like half an hour to do an eye test... wonder what he was doing inside the room man. Den we went to eat KFC... oh man I love mountain dew...

WHICH reminds me... I got this friend who doesn't know what is kickapoo (did i spell it correctly?) in addition to all the local cuisines he never tried before... He's a Singaporean.. haha.. ok he may be reading this so I should stop!

Yesterday, I saw a very cute girl at a bus stop. She is cute as in the way she speaks... She is around my age but she really has a way with kids. She was trying to explain how wasting paper will lead to greenhouse effect to her erm. niece?
But she said things like... "you cannot waste paper, cos paper is obtained from trees. They will go and tok tok the tree den go and make paper. Then trees help us take in the bad gas den give us good gas. So without trees it will be very smelly."
Ok you guys should really see her expressions... it was like super i-am-turning-into-a-kid-to-tok-to-a-kid face... so funny lar~
She really entertained me went I waited for the 53 which never seem to come...

Extracted teeth look yellowishly sick...
You see this yellow thing in a yellow unidentified liquid which has other solutes in it also... that's not all. The teeth looks erm.. unusually long because we dun usually see the part hidden by the gums. There is a risk of leaking and once it leaks the effects are DISASTROUS. I cannot imagine the yellow thing on my bag. Remember to bring a zip lock bag next time~
Anyway, all the whining was just joking only lar so dont take it too seriously... just play along haha
ANYWAY, thanks for your help all this while really appreciate it... all the complaining and whining...

WONDER what my friends are doing in Europe now... sIAN! If you guys see my blog... bettert think of what you wanna buy for me... haha

i took a shine to you at 10:37 PM

Saturday, May 27, 2006

Just came back from Great Singapore Sales... Still got lotsa people in ORCHARD at like 12... I think I should get myself a new pair of gai gai shoes if not I will be out of sync from the hip culture that young people have these days (gee.. sounds old)

ANYWAY, just hope that I wake up early tomorrow to go for my kayaking~

The driving instructor say I sure pass one... but I cannot believe him cos I dont want to disappoint myself. ANYWAY, I still think I will fail.

Hmm... whoever want me to run errands for them can bid now... When I pass I will see whose bid is more attractive... haha BHB

Need to sleep... Love to sleep... like erhem erhem... yah.. so good nite~

i took a shine to you at 12:34 AM

Thursday, May 25, 2006

When you are the only staff officer around, you become everything... that's all I have to say.. shall save you guys the details...

ANYWAY, I came home quite late today cos I had some last minute work to do. I don't why but started to think of her on my way back. Thinking of the times when we went to school together, thinking of the times when we studied at Macs, thinking of the times we spent tickling each other, thinking of her burping, thinking of how she could laugh until she cry, thinking of Hongkong, thinking of how she calls me, thinking of how long we could talk over the phone - as she said those were gone, long time since they happened but surely during the past year there were memorable things also. Was it just some words which spurted out due to anger? Just want to relive those moments and hope they can stay with me forever. No longer...

News spread... Ronglin noes bout my break up BUT! she refuses to say who told her... ARGH~!

Going for run again tomorrow... Heard Da miNg sian diao over canoeing alreadi i cannot be like him... hahaz

Jayce's in engine too... my prospectus gay partner... =)

i took a shine to you at 8:45 PM

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

FINALLY got my paddle! Actually it's not as cool as I thought it would be. It's just amazingly shiny.

The supplier gave me a lesson on how he fought his way through this business (literally). Suddenly I realised that the cruel and scheming business world which many people have told me is indeed present. You get cheated again and again. So after a few times you learn to be brutal. It's always the case of big eat small. The big companies can afford to go to court against small companies who have good evidence but lack funds to fight the case. The business world is just so cruel. BUT! That's how it is. Outwit your opponent... lick their boots when you need to... wait for the opportunity and strike back... give them a fatal blow...

I think the phrase 大丈夫能屈能伸 is something that many of us should remember. Giving way and bowing down does not equate to losing. It means you do not have the capacity to fight head on at the moment. Consolidate your strength and forces to fight back.

ANYWAY! Yan Xuan told me that when she used the Raptor K1 she couldn't sprint cos it was too unstable. The word unstable gave me an ambivalent kinda feeling. Unstable boats are faster but they are also harder to control. A little apprehensive now but I know I just need a bit of practise. BTW I changed the colour of the boat to Navy Blue... Thanx to Fiona's advice... as in seriously.. haha Black could be too hot but the seat is still white.

Anyone of you realised some of the metal drain covers on the pavements are dented? I finally know why they are dented - contractors like to drive their dumptrucks etc. on the pavements when they do their work.

RIGHT... I went for the HOME TEAM interview this afternoon and the questions they asked were the ones I expected. BUT! I didn't prep for them. It was pretty ok but I think they won't choose me cos I didn't have the OOmph when I spoke. You can tell one... whether a person is speaking with 101% conviction or just providing the right and nice-to-listen answers. I met this person called Liling. Her sis is a national canoeist and she knows quite a bit bout canoeing though she was from choir. Also told me bout her attachment at the prison school - can you imagine? attachment at prison sch? hmm... well in return I entertained her with my cold jokes haha.


Today's pretty fine... still trying to kick my habit... trying very hard... think I will crumble soon... haha

i took a shine to you at 8:26 PM

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Have fun my friends…
They flew off le =( Bo jio… haha… Ok I should really stop this. Well if I had gone with them, I would not have enough cash for my kayak. I cannot go anyway. Xiao Xuan, don’t forget my Foie Gras!

Can’t collect my paddle again… Only tomorrow… =(

ANYWAY, what was I writing yesterday? What QUIT? QUIT what? Oh well, it’s some sort like an internal struggle which is too sensitive to post in explicit language. BASICALLY, I need to quit some habit so that I don’t sink too deep. It’s gonna be weird. I am going to miss it. BUT! I need to do it. I cannot be selfish. I don’t know if I can do it. Not many people can help me with this though. Not now… someday it will still happen.

I dreamt of Yixin the past 2 days. Day 1 dream was crap. Day 2 dream was something like we wanted to patch back. BUT! I hesitated. Why did I hesitate? It used to be – I didn’t want to patch back and break up again fearing that I may hate her after that. BUT! In that dream, the reason was no longer this. It was the start of my agony… you don’t have to tell me this wrong because I know that it’s wrong. So what if it’s wrong? Many people do things that are wrong, knowing that they are wrong in the first place. It’s not as simple as “it’s wrong so you must stop” and then I go “ok I will stop”. If only things were that simple!

I want to vanish. I don’t want to think. I want to be selfish. I want to go where I feel like going. I want to control where I go. I want to leave. I want stay – Incoherent.

Yet, If to Like someone Is Not the right thing to do, we should leave. Sometimes we Only Need to Go.

Do you understand what I am trying to say? I doubt so. Even if you think you understand, I am quite sure you don’t. You are wrong. Seriously.

Suhan: You are suffering from Masked Depression

When a person suffers from Masked Depression, he appears to be happy but he is actually practicing self-denial.
This is not true… No self-denial… but self-confusion. Some kinda self-induced confusion.

IPPT in 2 weeks’ time – will not stop till I get gold.

ANYWAY! It’s jokes time… this is contributed by Suhan:
Why does Doraemon always have problem seeing things especially in the dark?
Ans: cos he always shen1 shou3 bu2 jian4 wu2 zhi3
-_-“

NEW BLOGSKIN
I hope this blog skin looks a little happier. Haha no lar I am really happier and this skin is reflecting my true feelings. It’s also a continuation of the little boy thing. SOOOOO CUTEEEEEE
ANYWAY! I am really rotting… so kind souls out there, if you are free, please date me… BUT if you got stuff to do it’s ok… I will find things to do!!! =)



i took a shine to you at 9:50 PM

Monday, May 22, 2006

I am heavily dependent... Can't stop... Just stop... Don't want to stop... Really have to stop? BLOCK you... Irritating... Don't know why I am so dependent. Don't understand why I cannot stop. Selfishly irritating... sianz...

Don't sink any further... kick the addiction... Shhh... 下贱

DON'T BE IRRITATING...

JUST STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry I still think I can't. I think I need to continue.


i took a shine to you at 8:54 PM I GOT PANG SEI AGAIN TODAY...
Shall not go into it... but anyway I didn't get my paddle... wait till tomorrow...
Why are human beings like that? I can't understand myself...
Just transport the paddle to macRitchie along with the boat lar! Why must I go down to collect it? Excitement. Just wanna hold a paddle and say it's mine. Looks cool.

TODAY (erm not the newspaper, oh btw NEWS stands for North East West South interesting rite? ok i digressing.. let's go back) is quite a screwed up day... facing some problems at work but cannot say... haha this is what happens when you work in the military... all the CLASSIFIED stuff... The only shiok thing today is running...

I went for training again to prepare myself for AHM, Kayaking and IPPT. Actually, I was amazed that I could still run quite fast... haha... Later on I concluded that it was the power of break up. You know... when you break up you eat very little and sometimes even don't eat. I lost like 4 kg in 3 weeks? Haha... being skinnier of cos I could run faster... blessing in disguise!

*Btw sidetrack... there is a reason why the boxes on my blog are not aligned... not that i suck in programming k... haha

Wayne is always crying... sigh... not always lar... but when he's hungry... but which baby doesn't? BUT! it's not irritating lar... he cry also so cute...

RITE! I GOT NOTHING ELSE TO SAY TODAY... JUST WANT MY PADDLE...
BRACSA 4 Max... I'll see you tomorrow~

i took a shine to you at 7:00 PM

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Warning: If you think you have no time, please do not read this entry. Alternatively, you could just read the part about choices. The rest will bore you…

EAT SLEEP EAT SLEEP EAT SLEEP EAT SLEEP… Life of a pig… Willy’s Sunday.

I AM WONDERING…
The purchase of my kayak got me thinking about certain issues. Is this the right decision? The purchase was another way of saying no Cambridge, no DSTA, no aeronautical Meng, hello NUS, hello Double Degree, hello kayaking and hello car. I cannot deny Cambridge is like wow… but I don’t think I do well there.

SINCE I AM STAYING IN SINGAPORE, I must make sure I don’t regret my decision 10 years down the road. It’s time for some serious studying and kayaking. I have also decided to apply for GIC scholarship (MAS dao me sigh) next year. Whatever it is, DO OR DIE.

NO LIGHT IS BRIGHT ENOUGH TO GUIDE A MAN, IF HE KNOWS NOT WHERE HE IS GOING.

Life is beautiful because it offers a myriad of choices. Be brave and make a choice. Make the best out of what you have chosen. Don’t regret because you only live once. To be frank, I admire President Bush a lot. Put yourself in his shoes, think: Do you have the guts to wage a war? How much are you willing to lose for something you believe in? How firmly can stand amidst controversy and pressure? Do you believe a leader is one who changes lives? They are choices that you have to make. Bush was strong and brave enough to make them.

I remember my sec 2 literature text – the enemy of people (should be lar har.. haha). The last sentence of the story goes like this: He, who stands alone, is the strongest.

When I was OCS, I was always forced to make decisions. The decisions that I have to make do not only affect me. When things go wrong, you get this weird feeling that everyone is blaming you. Thus many people are afraid of making decisions. Sometimes you know what you are doing is wrong. BUT, due to pressure from your men, you relent and make a popular but wrong decision. Do you have the moral courage to tell your men “NO”?

DUTY HONOUR COUNTRY
The famous words from West Point, USA. When the tortures and human rights violations occurred in IRAQ, there was an Army Captain who reported the cases to his superiors. His voice was not heard. There were great implications on the IRAQ war if news of the tortures leaked out. Undaunted by the pressure his peers and superiors exerted, he went up the chain of command, level by level, to the Senate. He made his point known.

Something that he said struck me the most: COUNTRY. He will not allow the tortures to continue for the USA was built on the fundamental values of freedom and it is dishonourable to not speak against it. Can you do that?

WHICH REMINDS ME OF MY CTW OC.
I hated him. I respected him. He was the one who put me through pain. He was the one who guided me to my very first definition of DUTY, HONOUR, COUNTRY.

I remember him saying this: If I think you are not fit to be an officer, I will put you out of course. Even if it is at the expense of my career, I will!
I was in push-up position when he said this. Seriously, almost all of us had thought about the possibility of going out of course. The OOC rate in Engineers has always been far higher than any other vocations. At that point in time, all I could think of was to complete the course. DUTY HONOUR COUNTRY was crap. BUT! As the course came to an end, I started to realize what everything was all about.

I don’t care whether NS is boring. I don’t care whether MOE is trying brain wash students during NE lessons. I don’t care what the Government says about punishing NS evaders. I don’t care how much our defence budget is. The only thing I care is I will defend my country. I don’t know about you. If a war breaks out, I will stay. I will. I will fight.
I have promised.

I am digressing, like seriously digressing. But for people whom I have talked to about regarding this, they know I can’t stop once I start. Peeps like Wenxiang, Suhan, Darius etc.

Let me tell you a story.
During WW2, a Malay regiment was tasked to defend a particular locality on a hill near the heart of Singapore. Much of Singapore has already fallen. The Japanese troops intelligently disguised themselves as Allied troops and entered the hill. One Malay Lieutenant discovered that they were not marching the way that the Allied troops do but he didn’t raise an alarm but allowed them to march into the parade square. Upon reaching the square, he killed all of them by sweeping the MG. The Japanese were furious they sent wave after wave of attacks until the Malay regiment went out of ammunition. During the last battle, they resorted to close bayonet fighting. NO ONE FLED. They fought and they died there. The Malay officer was captured alive and put into a gunny sack. They hung him up on a tree and threatened to kill him if he didn’t remove his uniform and divulge the military plan. He did not relent.

What happened to him?
He was BAYONETED to death. Can you imagine? In a dark gunny sack, you don’t know what will happen to you. You don’t know where the next stab will land. He is a human. He will also feel scared. Every time I think about this story, I will cry. It’s not just his life that he has given up it’s also his family. His kids were young.

WAR IS CRUEL. IF ANYONE THREATENS OUR SURVIVAL, WE HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO RUTHLESSLY DESTROY THEM.

Fellow NSFs, you guys are doing an honourable job. It could be very unfulfilling at times. It could even be a waste of your talent BUT! Always remember, at the end of your 2 years, you have done something for your country and no one can erase the sacrifices that you have made.

i took a shine to you at 8:50 PM

Saturday, May 20, 2006

And I swear by the moon and the stars in the sky
I'll be there
For better or worse
Till death do us part

Hmm... I think we should change it to: Till Love Do us Part.
Be realistic. When there is no love, there is nothing. This song wouldn't even exist! Come on... LOVE IS NOT ETERNAL... I am sorry. Well love is eternal only when you and your soulmate believe that it is. Only then can death be the only thing that separates you two.

What makes love such a powerful emotion -- It makes normal people do extraordinary things. It brings a person out of his normal behaviour to do things he never believed he could do. How far are you willing to go to save your parents if they are in grave danger? Are you willing to fight for something that is dear to you?

RigHT, I sound psychotic. But when you love something, it erases all forms of logical thinking. An inner strength...

Just in case anyone who is reading this blog thinks I am really going crazy, fret not. I am just clearer of what love is already. At least I know what love means to me. BUT! views usually differ. BUT! It's sometimes good that they differ. AND! really, LOVE is not everything...

i took a shine to you at 10:02 PM I got pang sei by DARIUS… IRRITATING

I went KAYAKING today!!! Like finally… but! I did not kayak. Okay, I know I am getting incoherent. The story goes like this. I went to MacRitchie and saw JOSEPH. Had a chat with him and looked at my juniors train. I thought they didn’t enough boats so I didn’t pop the question. THUS, my entire morning was spent watching them doing the infamous paddle-stop-paddle-stop-with-no-end drills. This morning was not entirely fruitless.

I FINALLY GOT TROPICAL FIBREGLASS TO BUILD MY BOAT! And paddle of cos.

I went down all the way to YISHUN just to find the factory. Took a bus from the reservoir to YISHUN Ave 1 and lost my way. GREAT! Anyway, I hopped onto a cab and told the uncle YISHUN AVE 6 and ST 23 junction, YS ONE building. He said: U turn in front k? I said: Orh. Then I said: near Orchid country club. He said: AIYA den why you ask me to U turn? So I went speechless. Erm… yah… HOW I KNOW RIGHT!!! YOU SHOULD KNOW MAH!!!

YS ONE BUILDING.
I think not many of us can appreciate the essence of the phrase, OCCUPATIONAL HAZARD. I finally did today. Upon entering the building, I was consumed by the gluey, painty and turpentinish fumes. On top of that, the roaring of the machines was not exactly friendly to the ear. That was a sidetrack. ANYWAY, I ordered the boat and it will cost me 2100 +. HEART PAIN.

RAPTOR K1 and BRACSA 4 max 217
COOL NAMES HUH! I will post the picture of my paddle soon (Tuesday?). The K1 gotta wait till June/July. Before that, let me describe how cool my baby’s gonna look. Right, the kayak is not the normal kinda OBS kayak. It’s sleek and the width is little bigger than the size of my butt. It’s somewhat a lanky kite shape, rounder at the edges though. If I’m not wrong, it’s made of Kevlar Carbon. Hmmm cool huh haha! So basically in kayaking the slimmer/longer the boat, the faster it is. So you can bet my boat’s gonna be FAST manz… haha.. I think should stop being so BHB. BUT I AM EXCITED@!! Now comes the paddle. No it’s not the OBS kinda paddle too. The paddle much lighter and stronger. The blade looks like a tear drop. Actually some people call it the wing shape. Basically, it looks like the aerodynamic foil thing which we drew in JC Physics.
AND you know what?
The kayak is black, the paddle is black, and I am going to be very very black. SO WE are gonna be the ALL BLACKS manz! *lAME*
Can you imagine? A black boat plus a black paddle… COOL… erm I mean hot when the weather’s hot but it’s cool as in cool… erm… AIYA! IT’S STYLISH! Knowing that it will be darn hot when the sun’s bright I changed the seat to white. SMArt rite??

oKoK it’s a boring SATURDAY afternoon… shall come back again at night to write more…

i took a shine to you at 5:10 PM

Friday, May 19, 2006

Right... You din see wrongly. If you ever hear any colourful language spurting out of my mouth, regardless whether I am in uniform, you have the right to fine me erm... a dollar?

ANYWAY, I used to be a no-vulgarity-if-hear-vulgarity-will-get-pissed-off guy before I entered the Army. Now I am a vulgar-in-uniform-clean-in-civilian guy. Ok that sounded weird. But of course... I still think it's necessary to use vulgarity sometimes eg. when dealing with PUNKS and HOKKIEN PENG. No not elitism or prejudice, but the message gets across clearer and stronger. You can't be like "please keep quiet..." or like "Can you please behave yourself?"
How did it start? hmmm it all started with OCS... thanks to some of the "relaxed" exercises... and demands... vulgarity became an avenue of releasing pressure. Oh well no excuse now... not a cadet anymore.. SO I WILL CHANGE! So peeps like SUhAn can go on and swear at me... tempt me to swear back... NO I WILL NOT!

TODAY IS A CRAZY DAY!
went to camp early in the morning for Army Half Marathon Training... so long never run already now go run... it was erm.. 6km? shud be something that is no kick... but I run until i wanna puKE! kept on chasing the first guy but couldn't smell him though... NVM! For the trainings to come I will run like FOREST GUMP.

REaLiSed something: message people must relax... don't need to wait for message to come back one... if it's meant to come, it will come *hINt*HinT* ... hHAha sounds darn familiar...

OUT CAMP LUNCH...
my friend drove like an F1 RAcER. I almost puked... and HUBERT's (my richie rich specialist) hair went wOOooF (out of place). Ok so going out camp should be for something good rite? YeA we had our much awaited BURGER KING! I mean there is only one burger king in Singapore lor.. den only open today lor... that's why must go out camp to eat burger king lor... maebe thomson plaza's burger is the best? hmmm ya lor...

HAPPY HOUR...
Oily O lUa... the oyster thing.. oyster omellette (got spell correctly not) erm ya.. the food's quite good... There were tiger girls too...
WAIT there is one thing I don understand... WHY TIGER GIRLS? What's their role? Will guys drink more when they see them? Well personally I don't. I mean I can't deny they were quite erm.. hot.. but seriously not my type... wHICH BRINGS ME TO ANOTHER POINT!

BEAUTY
I think it turned out that I am also in the "MAJORITY" in terms of beauty perception... they said that MIsS X is not cute... but I thought otherwise... so as usual I got suan...

DRiVing...
SUX... think I may fail.. =( oh but nvm... wait actually... mind... hmm.. aiya dunnoe lar.. I saw this instructor talking in the car with no one sitting in front.. i thought got spooky things... but end up the guy was sitting at the back...

TOMORROW...
KAYAKING!!!!!! think i will capsize... pray for me my friends... haiZ... no more mahjong... me got driving...

anYone wanna eat BAN MIAN??? haha...

i took a shine to you at 9:26 PM

Thursday, May 18, 2006

The entire process of writing this entry is painful. The intent of setting up a blog is even more painful.

I thought of many names for my blog... things like isolation, leave me alone, love hurts etc. In the end I settled for "different perception of love". I realized my reasoning and understanding of love is warped? Sorry but I still think we are the "majority" *grinz* erm ya... *oxymoron* ANyway, I guess the definition of it changes as we grow older and really I may not think like this in the future. But it seems that I have had this concept for ages. Seriously, do you believe in "if it is meant to be it will be"? Do you believe in "love never fails"? Do you believe in "love is something you will never grow tired of"? I think whoever's reading this blog rite now could well be the "minority"!

THOUGHT: she would be the girl that I will marry.
Breaking up was never in my mind. It took me quite a while to accept the break up.
I have accepted it but have yet to forget it.

Nobody's fault. Time, events, feelings and people have caused her love to fade. When love's gone, it's really gone. It's cruelly gone. Never mind what you have done in the past. They will never come back it's as if the couple has died. Even if only one of them died, the other will go soon. No more "wanna grow old with you". No more Emmanuel and Ruo Qi. No more cuddling in the couch. No more Cafe Cartel. No more Fish and Co. No more Lido. No more 3rd Sept. No more telephone. No more liquicpeiperland. No more Corrochan. No more 7 wonders. No more Switzerland honey moon. No more pui pui names. No more peek a boos. No more time. No more sadness from reading the blogs. No more xin yi chen. No more future.

Price to pay: Forgotten.
Things I received: A different life (Do I sound happy? =D)

ANYWAY, Wayne has been very whiny... just like me... haha oh well...
He yearns for love and company. He will act cute and cry if he's left alone. Just play with him and he will stop. If he continues, you'd need to carry him around and talk to him. On Wednesday nite, I witnessed how babies gek sai. Erm in English: constipation. You can help him by going
"MMMmmmMMMMMMMmmMMMMMMmMMMmMMM" with him. His face turned red from the pushing and the legs went straight and hung in a leg raise position. Amusing!

Oh well, he's the first grand child... the treasure of my parents, Lao Da and Da Sao... Their amusement, their joy. I think I have been neglecting him these few weeks so to make up for it I shall go shopping for TOYS! YEA~

okOK time to go!
DA VINCI CODE!!! *wHINnNNnNNeneeEEEeeeeeE* okok that's me... my emotional bribery... Haha just kidding! dont be stressed... =P

i took a shine to you at 8:18 PM