Monday, April 07, 2008

today... i finally know what it means by having to see yourself as worthless. I feel so lousy today. Never lousier than before. I can't change things that have happened and I choose to look at it like a wimp, a pessimist. I choose to let myself remain sad, scared and desolate. Strong words. True or not? I'm don't care. I just to choose to use them. Tell me that I am the lousiest boyfriend on earth I would thank you for stating the obvious. I know I am. No matter what anyone says... I am adamant about this truth. Just let me remain depressed and make ppl around me more stressed up and intolerable of my behaviour and start leaving me.. Till I screw up my life... ever once more... i hate myself.

i hate myself... ...

i took a shine to you at 4:36 PM

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

It's normal to feel jealous. It's human to feel jealous. It's normal to feel awkward. It's human to feel awkward.

That aside, it gives me no reason to interfere with the way she thinks. The more I am worried that it would happen. It will happen. Self prophecy at work. I will take this a step at a time. Stare at my fears with love in my heart. I will ask her to go. Haven't I always say if you love something, let go; if it comes back to you then you know it's here to stay.

If you cannot stand uncertainty perhaps you're just not fit for love. If you cannot stand pressure and conquering your "mini-me" feelings then you're just not fit for love. I love her.

When was last time I felt the mutual happiness kind of feeling out of love and respect. Do you respect her? If you don't respect, you can never be fit for love.

I am human. I feel jealous. I am human. I feel awkward. I love her therefore I can face them.

Distance pulls us poles apart. I noe that she would be there in my heart.
People separate us. I noe that she would be there in my heart

i took a shine to you at 7:37 PM

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Life is simple but how often do I complicate things.
Work - think deep, think hard. Convince yourself to convince others
Life - think simple, think bold. Just be who you are and love people for who they are.

i took a shine to you at 12:30 PM

Monday, November 12, 2007

It feels great to be able to work things out and even better when you know that both of you want the relationship to succeed.

Sorry for starting this long-not-so-awaited post with a mushy statement. I was simply too overwhelmed by feelings during the short msn conversation.

I promised to be accountable to you... Will let you know what's happening to me so that you will not worry!

i took a shine to you at 11:52 PM

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

I quote Little Miss Sunshine, "Life is just one fucking beauty contest after another."

Don't ask me why I chose to start all with such a quote. The truth I am don't even know why I have become so cynical these days. Not just that, cynicism is accompanied by self-pity and fantasy.
Because I = integrate r sq dm and torque is analogous to force

i took a shine to you at 9:57 PM

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Happy like toad!
but i still can't solve the statics question :S

i took a shine to you at 9:48 AM

Sunday, September 16, 2007

I feel so stupid.

The only thing I want to do now is to go through some mind -flushing. The removal of the cluttered and disorganized material in my brain so that it's blank. After that, I would go to the beach, a quiet spot on a beach, and just lie there and listen the waves. So much for wanting to work in the finance sector... can't even take this kinda stress... wat a wimp!

i took a shine to you at 2:30 PM

Thursday, September 13, 2007

When life's a bliss... the blog becomes barren...

I haven't blogged for 10 days already! Well... been kinda busy with being happy, engin mc and sch work.

AND here I am blogging though I really have nothing to blog about also.. haha
also.. that's it for today..
wish me luck for statics test =)

i took a shine to you at 11:11 PM

Monday, September 03, 2007

from now on... my life will only consist of...

s
f
j
fr
eng mc

i took a shine to you at 11:13 PM

Friday, August 31, 2007

i love spidey webs!

i took a shine to you at 12:14 AM